Can't Concentrate , Need My Inspiration

     Did you ever have one of those days when you couldn't concentrate on your work, if you are an artist like me, you have gone through this up-teen million times in your career.
     My lack of creative thought has to due from "Balance".  Balance is something artist and designers use constantly in to complete any work of art.    
The lack of balance.....That is to say, the unbalance is in my private life.
     Now that things have been improving with my daughter, I find my thoughts traveling everywhere in my mind, like each one is lost.   That very special man I talk about , that lives in MA fills almost every thought.
     Its like he's the missing piece of the puzzle waiting to finish me.
     It is true that he inspires me, whenever he comes back into my life, he brings happiness to my heart.  I want to be always around him.
    I guess I am an old fashioned lady in the belief that he'll come to see me, complete my life and ask me to come back home with him.  That would be only right.
    It sounds kinda strange a 47 year old lady believing in something that sounds like it belongs in a fairy tale.
    But, I feel like the ''Real ' Artist within myself can only be brought out in me by him only, without him, there's no inspiration for that part of me.
    Its amazing I still carry the memory of him holding my hand, squeezing it, even though it was just for a few seconds years ago.  I always felt so safe with him.
    I miss and feel lost without my inspiration.
   I wonder if DaVinci used the initials S.A.S when he was painting Mona Lisa, How else could he have completed the portrait!