Vacations.

                 I have been getting vacation booklets through AAA since I have been a member since 2007.  Planning vacations and actually doing them are two separate things for me.  Being on a budget limits when and where you get to go.   Today I took my daughter and her friend to Delaware beach.  Back in the seventies growing up in Delaware, Ohio there weren't too many things to do during the summer other than going to Delaware  Beach, that was a treat for the four of us kids when grandpa took us swimming  there followed by a vanilla ice cream cone.  We got two when Alum Creek made another beach in the early 80's.
                I always wanted to go see the East Coast and summer would be perfect, although its pretty busy there during this time of the year because of the enormity of the beaches.  The main reason I never went was I had nobody there I knew and no one who would go with me.  Well, I know somebody there I really trust and care about, the problem is, I feel kinda uninvited and intruding  where I shouldn't.  My dad felt I should just stay put.  I know it sounds strange, but I feel that its a best.  Maybe one day I will be welcomed.  I have cried so much, just feeling bad about myself.   I am a gentle woman who likes to keep peace and express respect and love for everyone.  I wish I could see him again and maybe he could figure something out.  Until then I have to rely on memory and be happy until one day when I will hear from him again and see him one day.    Ohio will have to keep me a little while longer.  I would call too but the same applies to it too, I think of Steely Dan's song.    My love to Everyone in Amesbury and Boston, Ma, Love and Prayers Always.